Well, there are days I sit and judge others. How they raise their kids, how they conduct their lives, what they eat, etc. I feel guilty and I catch myself. Today I was judged very critically by one of my co-workers, to my face and not a pleasant conversation.
As I have posted before, Brianna moved out to be with her boyfriend. She wants nothing to do with us, any of us. Not her sister, brothers, neice, nobody. We have completely cut her out of our lives at this time. It is called tough love. She is 18 yrs old and we do not agree with the lifestyle she has chosen. Scott and I both agreed that if she wanted to see what it is really like to have no family and noone to "come home to" when things get tough, then we would provide that scenerio for her. This included not going to her high school graduation. First off because she needs to understand the consequences of her actions and second because she didn't give us tickets to attend which means we would have to sit in the bleachers. Third, Scott would have blown a gasket and come completely unglued to see her skank boyfriend sitting in the seats that should have been reserved for her family.
So my coworker this morning asked if I went to graduation. She already knew the answer, her son graduated too. We live in a small town and she would have seen us if we had attended. When I answered no we did not attend, she got very angry and said some pretty nasty things. She even said "I don't care what church you go to, that is wrong." Uh, what does my church have to do with us attending her graduation. When I tried to explain our position, she absolutely refused to listen.
I sat here with tears of frustration in my eyes because I was being judged without the chance to explain myself and my actions. Hmmm, this is exaclty what I do when I have thoughts of judgement against others. They do not have the chance to explain their position on what I am judging. Well, gotta tell ya, it sucks being judged to my face. So I thought of emailing her to explain my point of view, but thought I would just let it lie. She would never understand. Of course I sat here and judged her in my mind. She lets her son drink and drive, and he even wrecked her husbands truck, flipped it in the ditch when he was drunk. She wouldn't let him go to the hospital because he had been drinking even though he was in excrutiating pain, but she didn't want him to get caught drinking and driving. She has a son who has attended a church that is run by some friends of ours. She has her boys both working at a bar. The younger one who attends church knows that the bar is not where he wants to be, but she makes him work there and won't let him attend church anymore because he sees that what his parents are sinning and it bothers him. See? Totally judging her for the way she raises her kids, just like she did to me.
I called in sick the last several days. I really was sick, but I didn't go to the Dr. or work out or do anything really constructive except clean out the fridge. Today I am tired and all I want to do is sleep. I have been reading a blog about weight loss and he is really inspiring me. I have gained back about 5 lbs and I really want to get this weight back off and get the scale moving down again. No more excuses, only results.
Well, back to the old grind stone. Maybe next time I will have more positive things to say. I am kinda using this blog as a rant blog instead of a weight loss blog. I need to get back to basics.
Ciao baby !!!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
Back to the gym
Ok, I went back to the gym today. I only worked out once last week. Gas money was the biggest issue. I made the decision to not drive the extra 14 miles per day and got a grip on my eating and kept away from the diet caffeine soda. I had alot of headaches last week, but I was able to work thru them. I am so thankful to have the sleeping pills. Not many left and doc wont let me have anymore for a couple months. =(
I spent 30 mins on the eliptical and I was sweating like a pig by the time I was done. That gym is HOT. Its been cool outside and I don't think the owners realize (or care) that just because they are comfortable sitting in the office, doesn't mean we (those of us working out) are comfortable. I may say something this week. I don't mind sweating, but I know myself well enough that I will cut a workout short if I am too hot. I am trying to get my workouts longer. I have really been holding back. I know better, I need to put in an hour of workout. So from today forward its 30 mins, not 15 on the elipitcal and 30 mins of strength training. I only did 15 mins of strength today. I tanned the last 15 mins. 'Cause like my cousin Mark says "Fat looks better tan"....LOL love that line.
I made an appointment for Scott today. He looks horrible. I am not sure whats wrong, but he doesn't look right. His skin is sallow, his face is puffy and he has zero energy or focus. I am kinda shocked he agreed, but when he got home last night, he finally admitted all he wanted to do was sleep. I hope its nothing serious, but I am preparing for the worst. He could have lung cancer. He could have a blocked artery. He could have some sort of blood disorder, high blood pressure, or just be anemic. I think I will visit the doctor with him.
Well, I have had all my water for the day, a little high in calories, but over all a good day.
Ciao baby !!
I spent 30 mins on the eliptical and I was sweating like a pig by the time I was done. That gym is HOT. Its been cool outside and I don't think the owners realize (or care) that just because they are comfortable sitting in the office, doesn't mean we (those of us working out) are comfortable. I may say something this week. I don't mind sweating, but I know myself well enough that I will cut a workout short if I am too hot. I am trying to get my workouts longer. I have really been holding back. I know better, I need to put in an hour of workout. So from today forward its 30 mins, not 15 on the elipitcal and 30 mins of strength training. I only did 15 mins of strength today. I tanned the last 15 mins. 'Cause like my cousin Mark says "Fat looks better tan"....LOL love that line.
I made an appointment for Scott today. He looks horrible. I am not sure whats wrong, but he doesn't look right. His skin is sallow, his face is puffy and he has zero energy or focus. I am kinda shocked he agreed, but when he got home last night, he finally admitted all he wanted to do was sleep. I hope its nothing serious, but I am preparing for the worst. He could have lung cancer. He could have a blocked artery. He could have some sort of blood disorder, high blood pressure, or just be anemic. I think I will visit the doctor with him.
Well, I have had all my water for the day, a little high in calories, but over all a good day.
Ciao baby !!
Friday, May 1, 2009
Gettin' back in the groove
Woot another one bites the dust !! In the last month we have lost 3, count them 3, TBC reps. The newest one is Scotty too hotty or as Claire used to like to call him, Fatty McFlakey. Robin stepped into one of the full time positions, which leaves 2 full time and one part time position open. Woot !!!! Vincent has had a phone interview and an in person interview. Only 3 people have been interviewed, but I am guessing that we should know it less than 2 weeks if he got hired. Keeping Vincent lifted up in prayer to get this job. I know he would do a great job and he desperately needs this experience so he can support his family for the rest of his life. GAH !
Me, I'm starting to keep track of my eating again. Still trying to work out that whole evening drink *sigh* Even with the sleeping pills, I am not deterred. Grrrr !! I am well rested today, hopefully I can get some melatonin Tuesday as we are broke until then. I started back in my food journal on Choosing 2 Lose. I am also reading alot of blogspotters weight loss blogs. I am starting to get my motivation back. I quit drinking sodas again, and I feel alot better without all that caffiene in my system. No more heart palpations and sleeping is less interupted....except for Scott and his snoring. Having control of my caffeine is my first step and I feel sooo much better.
Me, I'm starting to keep track of my eating again. Still trying to work out that whole evening drink *sigh* Even with the sleeping pills, I am not deterred. Grrrr !! I am well rested today, hopefully I can get some melatonin Tuesday as we are broke until then. I started back in my food journal on Choosing 2 Lose. I am also reading alot of blogspotters weight loss blogs. I am starting to get my motivation back. I quit drinking sodas again, and I feel alot better without all that caffiene in my system. No more heart palpations and sleeping is less interupted....except for Scott and his snoring. Having control of my caffeine is my first step and I feel sooo much better.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Wow !! What a few weeks can bring. Once again Brianna decided that it would be a good decision to move out because then she can do what she wants to do and be her own person. PFFFFT !!! She is clueless.
Her skank boyfriend cheated on her and broke up with her. Then that same night comes to her and says he is sorry and that he really loves her. PFFFFT !!! She actually believes that she can love him enough to change him. Her job is to make sure she does everything she can to make their relationship work and he doesn't have to put forth any effort as long as he says he loves her. She is really the one who was keeping them apart because she didn't want to hear us tell her "no", (which of course we would not have said). She is willing to give up her whole family for him, but he doesn't have to give up anything to be with her.
What a crock !! I taught her better than that. She has seen from personal experience with her bio mom and myself that men who cheat, always cheat. It breaks my heart to see her degrade herself. Well, you can only raise them, you can't live their lives for them. IT SUCKS !! Unfortunately, only God can bring her to her senses. Oh, and he will, mark my words. He will cut her down, chew her up and spit her out. She will be bloody and beaten down. Only then can God pick her up and show her the right path and mold her into the woman of God I know she can be.
Her skank boyfriend cheated on her and broke up with her. Then that same night comes to her and says he is sorry and that he really loves her. PFFFFT !!! She actually believes that she can love him enough to change him. Her job is to make sure she does everything she can to make their relationship work and he doesn't have to put forth any effort as long as he says he loves her. She is really the one who was keeping them apart because she didn't want to hear us tell her "no", (which of course we would not have said). She is willing to give up her whole family for him, but he doesn't have to give up anything to be with her.
What a crock !! I taught her better than that. She has seen from personal experience with her bio mom and myself that men who cheat, always cheat. It breaks my heart to see her degrade herself. Well, you can only raise them, you can't live their lives for them. IT SUCKS !! Unfortunately, only God can bring her to her senses. Oh, and he will, mark my words. He will cut her down, chew her up and spit her out. She will be bloody and beaten down. Only then can God pick her up and show her the right path and mold her into the woman of God I know she can be.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Good Friday
Well the weather isn't so good, but today is not about the weather. I am looking forward to tonights service. I definately need some fellowship. Very sad week, Carol Heck died last Sunday. She was such an inspiration. The pain she endured and the cheerful outlook she still had after all of her issues, makes my pitiful uncomfortables seem like dust in the wind. I know she is whole, happy and with the Lord now. Keeping him company and getting started on her eternal work. God bless you Carol and keep Darryl safe.
Good news is that I have been really good about getting to the gym. At least 5 times a week, and am tanning like crazy. My belly and butt look gooood..lol. My arms are not tanning as fast as the rest of my body...kinda freaky since that is pretty much the only body part that I have tanned in the last 20 yrs. I went to the doctor a few weeks ago, my weight officially was 242. So, still not down, but not going up at all.
I have not gotten control of my eating, but with the Lunesta, I am not drinking as much. There have been a few days, but for the most part I am just taking it at bedtime and going right to sleep. It is extremely expensive and with the fact that Scott stole a check and overspent again, I may not be able to afford it this month. Scott has received several calls from the lawyer, but State Farm is not wanting to cough up any extra cash. I advised Scott to start telling the lawyer the things that would let him know that we are willing to go to court because of all the mental trauma because the accident was so close to the date of his almost fatal accident 5 yrs ago and all the crap I have been getting at work since that accident. We really need that money soon, things are looking really bleak.
And here is to a better tomorrow. God Bless.
Good news is that I have been really good about getting to the gym. At least 5 times a week, and am tanning like crazy. My belly and butt look gooood..lol. My arms are not tanning as fast as the rest of my body...kinda freaky since that is pretty much the only body part that I have tanned in the last 20 yrs. I went to the doctor a few weeks ago, my weight officially was 242. So, still not down, but not going up at all.
I have not gotten control of my eating, but with the Lunesta, I am not drinking as much. There have been a few days, but for the most part I am just taking it at bedtime and going right to sleep. It is extremely expensive and with the fact that Scott stole a check and overspent again, I may not be able to afford it this month. Scott has received several calls from the lawyer, but State Farm is not wanting to cough up any extra cash. I advised Scott to start telling the lawyer the things that would let him know that we are willing to go to court because of all the mental trauma because the accident was so close to the date of his almost fatal accident 5 yrs ago and all the crap I have been getting at work since that accident. We really need that money soon, things are looking really bleak.
And here is to a better tomorrow. God Bless.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Fantastic Friday
Wow. Today is sunny and cool. Even better, the wicked witch is out today and I do not have to see her till Monday. Hopefully she is interviewing for a job and will quit next week. That would be my happy dream.
Well, I went to the fitness center last night. IT WAS PACKED. GAH !! I figured out the eliptical and a few of the machines. There was some creepy guy there with his kids, not really making an effort to work out, just kinda staring at everyone. Not liking that. The tanning booth was busy the whole time I was there, but thats ok, I tanned this morning. So last night was 15 mins on the eliptical, which is much more difficult than the one I am used to and I can feel the different muscles being used. So I am out of my comfort zone, but I know it will work. I did 2 reps on most of the machines. The tricep pushdown, I did not fit. Really? The seat moves up and diagonally, which makes the distance between the pad you lean on and the seat smaller. I hate manufacturers that don't take into account those of us who are overweight, and adjust their machines to fit everyone. Oh well, there are other ways to do my triceps.
This morning I went back, 15 mins on the eliptical and 5 minutes tanning. I have never been in a tanning bed before, so that was kinda fun. It was kinda warming, but I was nervous I would over do it. So far, no ill effects. *i did it in the nude* I read an article somewhere about 15 yrs ago that tanning can help with boosting metabolism during a weight loss program. I am already feeling healthier.
Well, gotta get back to work,
Ciao baby !!
Well, I went to the fitness center last night. IT WAS PACKED. GAH !! I figured out the eliptical and a few of the machines. There was some creepy guy there with his kids, not really making an effort to work out, just kinda staring at everyone. Not liking that. The tanning booth was busy the whole time I was there, but thats ok, I tanned this morning. So last night was 15 mins on the eliptical, which is much more difficult than the one I am used to and I can feel the different muscles being used. So I am out of my comfort zone, but I know it will work. I did 2 reps on most of the machines. The tricep pushdown, I did not fit. Really? The seat moves up and diagonally, which makes the distance between the pad you lean on and the seat smaller. I hate manufacturers that don't take into account those of us who are overweight, and adjust their machines to fit everyone. Oh well, there are other ways to do my triceps.
This morning I went back, 15 mins on the eliptical and 5 minutes tanning. I have never been in a tanning bed before, so that was kinda fun. It was kinda warming, but I was nervous I would over do it. So far, no ill effects. *i did it in the nude* I read an article somewhere about 15 yrs ago that tanning can help with boosting metabolism during a weight loss program. I am already feeling healthier.
Well, gotta get back to work,
Ciao baby !!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
I bit the bullet
I am a tad nervous now. I joined the new health club in New Haven. I feel so guilty. We are so broke, but here I am spending an extra $20 per month on this. I spent $75 to join. I get a month free tanning. Oh yea, I am doing that. Me and my big ole white butt..lol. So, the plan is to go tonight, but I may go in the morning instead. They even have a shower that I can use before I go to work....yeee haaaw !!! Back in the saddle again. The machines are better, there are more machines that I can actually use.
I am worth it
Ciao baby !!
I am worth it
Ciao baby !!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Tuesday, sunny and bright
Yay !! Tuesday and almost half way thru the day. Scott threw me 3 small reese's bites this morning...lol. Yup I ate them. Later I had a handful of lite chips. Not great, but not horrible either. For lunch I ate the Teryaki chicken I made last night. Yummy !! A tad on the salty side, but altogether very good. A serving of pretzel rods have rounded out my eating until dinner tonight. I will grab a bottle of water on my 3:00 break.
I had some errands to run this morning and got off schedule, so I was only in the gym for 15 mins. Hey, at least I went and I can go for 15 mins this evening before I go home. I set up the appointment for my son to go to Manpower in the morning. Which means, I have to get up with him and he can follow me out there. We will also try to hit the Social Security office too for his new card. Not sure how much time we will have because he has to get stasha and the baby for some sort of appointment in St Louis. On my way home, I am stopping at that new fitness place to see if it is something I can afford or will like. My suspicion is that I will end up joining at least for a few months to see how I like it. To me working out is kinda private and I don't like alot of people around looking at me. Where I am now, is on a busy street and people look in when they walk past. LOL...excuses excuses.
I took a walk on my lunch break. I was kinda forced to because I forgot my car keys in the office and it is a 3 min walk in and a 3 min walk back out, too much trouble so I walked around the parking lot for 10 mins. Another bit of exercise in and I plan on stopping at the gym tonight for 15 mins. Rose will be there and she is a great person to talk to.
Ok, its time to sign out. Of couse the wicked witch did NOT meet with me today. Which to me signals she is gonna write me up again... *sigh* Really can't wait for her to leave. Someday !!
Ciao baby !!!
I had some errands to run this morning and got off schedule, so I was only in the gym for 15 mins. Hey, at least I went and I can go for 15 mins this evening before I go home. I set up the appointment for my son to go to Manpower in the morning. Which means, I have to get up with him and he can follow me out there. We will also try to hit the Social Security office too for his new card. Not sure how much time we will have because he has to get stasha and the baby for some sort of appointment in St Louis. On my way home, I am stopping at that new fitness place to see if it is something I can afford or will like. My suspicion is that I will end up joining at least for a few months to see how I like it. To me working out is kinda private and I don't like alot of people around looking at me. Where I am now, is on a busy street and people look in when they walk past. LOL...excuses excuses.
I took a walk on my lunch break. I was kinda forced to because I forgot my car keys in the office and it is a 3 min walk in and a 3 min walk back out, too much trouble so I walked around the parking lot for 10 mins. Another bit of exercise in and I plan on stopping at the gym tonight for 15 mins. Rose will be there and she is a great person to talk to.
Ok, its time to sign out. Of couse the wicked witch did NOT meet with me today. Which to me signals she is gonna write me up again... *sigh* Really can't wait for her to leave. Someday !!
Ciao baby !!!
Monday, March 16, 2009
Monday Monday
Yup, Monday again. My visitor Auntie Flo came this weekend and is making me quite uncomfortable, thank you very much !! My mood is up and down the last two days. I love and hate being a woman..LOL.
Ok, so I prolly have not mentioned this before. I have a confession. I have a guilty pleasure. It is World of Warcraft online game. Yup, I am a video game dork. I used to play some video games when the kids were little, but really didn't play anymore. On Christmas 2006, my oldest son bought me the game. I was totally addicted for almost a year, but have gotten less and less obsessed. Sunday's are my catch up on laundry and play WoW day. I did alot of WoW and a little of the laundry. Gonna have to get more laundry done tonight. So basically, I sat on my butt the majority of the day. Ah, but I did get to lvl 75. 5 more levels and I will be able to raid. Ya, I know, wow what a dork...LOL.
Eating wise I did really well, in fact, I barely ate anything. 2 servings of chips (*blush*), 2 slices of lunch meat, 4 pieces of gen tso chicken and a bowl of popcorn with parm chz. I was feeling really depressed yesterday, so not letting go of that cocktail yet.
My eating today has been on the low side, 2 servings pretzel rods w/lite cream chz, a boca burger, 1 oz of cheese, 1 oz of trail mix and 3 kosher pickel spears. Now my evening is open for a nice filling dinner. Got some chicken thawed. There is some teryaki marinade just waiting to be used along with some rice. Yum yum. only 10 more minutes till I leave this heck hole. One day closer to the wicked witch leaving the heck hole. Has she found another job, you ask? I have no idea, but I do know she will leave someday. Hopefully sooner rather than later.
Ciao baby !!
Ok, so I prolly have not mentioned this before. I have a confession. I have a guilty pleasure. It is World of Warcraft online game. Yup, I am a video game dork. I used to play some video games when the kids were little, but really didn't play anymore. On Christmas 2006, my oldest son bought me the game. I was totally addicted for almost a year, but have gotten less and less obsessed. Sunday's are my catch up on laundry and play WoW day. I did alot of WoW and a little of the laundry. Gonna have to get more laundry done tonight. So basically, I sat on my butt the majority of the day. Ah, but I did get to lvl 75. 5 more levels and I will be able to raid. Ya, I know, wow what a dork...LOL.
Eating wise I did really well, in fact, I barely ate anything. 2 servings of chips (*blush*), 2 slices of lunch meat, 4 pieces of gen tso chicken and a bowl of popcorn with parm chz. I was feeling really depressed yesterday, so not letting go of that cocktail yet.
My eating today has been on the low side, 2 servings pretzel rods w/lite cream chz, a boca burger, 1 oz of cheese, 1 oz of trail mix and 3 kosher pickel spears. Now my evening is open for a nice filling dinner. Got some chicken thawed. There is some teryaki marinade just waiting to be used along with some rice. Yum yum. only 10 more minutes till I leave this heck hole. One day closer to the wicked witch leaving the heck hole. Has she found another job, you ask? I have no idea, but I do know she will leave someday. Hopefully sooner rather than later.
Ciao baby !!
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Stinkin' Saturday
And here I sit waiting for the crazies to call and ask me what their balance is, or blame me because they overdrew their account, or the best one, helping someone born in 1928 learn how to set up online banking when they do not know where to find the address bar.
I have only worked out twice this week, but on the bright side that is 2 more times than I worked out last week. I have been watching my calorie intake, except for that evening cocktail that I am still trying to shake. I am seriously considering joining the new 24 hour fitness place that just opened. Why? Well, my current gym has hours that are not very compatible with my schedule. Their hours are 6am - 8pm Mon - Thurs, 6am - 6pm Fri, 7am - 2pm Sat, and 9am - 2pm Sun. My work hours are 11am - 7:30pm and saturdays 8am - 4:30pm, and I only get 30 mins for lunch. My current gym has alot of people over the age of 65, which is great, its nice to see older people keep fit. BUT it is a tad on the uncomfortable side because they have all day to be there, I go in around 9:30am, and they constantly want to chat and keep me from my workout...and of course I am too polite to interupt. *sigh* The advantages of the 24 hours place is being able to work out after I get off work, which is when I have the most energy. I would be able to go on weekends after I get off work and get home from church. If I was bored, I could run up and do 20 mins on the eliptical. I believe it would give me the freedom to be more pro-active in my exercise. The only 2 disadvantages that I can forsee at this time are it is $20 more per month and there is not always someone on duty to supervise. I plan on visiting this place on my day off this week to check it out.
How is my bathroom you ask? NOT DONE !!!! Why you ask? Apparently, our guy got bent because my husband did some of the work he was supposed to do. Why you ask did my husband do the work? Because our guy started to peter out and the project started taking too long. This wednesday will be one month since we ripped out our old bathroom. Soooo, hubby and I started doing some of the work ourselves and we are not very good at it. After our guy didnt show up last Friday, I took it upon myself to go to You Tube and watch a video on how to mud and tape drywall. I didn't do too bad if I do say so myself. When hubby got involved later that evening, it didn't go as well because he is all about fast and not about doing it correctly. Oh well, it was at least being done. We can always pay someone later down the line when we have more money in the budget to fix our mistakes, right? I didn't sand much after the mud dried and just painted over it. I know, I know, not the right thing to do, but I really need my bathroom to be functional again and cosmetics are not a priority at this time. So our guy called me Tuesday evening and told me he was upset because hubby messed up on the grout and mud and taping. I had to bite my tongue almost in half not to snap his head off because this guy didn't show up for 5 days and lied to his wife that he was coming to our house to work and she was calling around looking for him. HOW DARE HE BE MAD AT US for wanting our freaking bathroom finished. While I was talking to him, I was painting right over the pitiful mud and tape job we did and didn't sand. LOL. I know it drove him nuts, but hey, he didnt show to do it, right?
*stepping off soapbox*
Hubby laid most of the tile for the floor yesterday and guess who showed up? Yup, our guy. He cut the hole for the toilet, fixed the tile in the shower so the handles would fit flush, and fixed a bit of the plumbing. There is still alot of little issues that he was supposed to be responsible for, but apparently he has washed his hands of our project. Hubby will cut the door and finish the tile for the floor today and grout it after work on Sunday. Monday we will be able to install the toilet and the sink. Not sure what we are gonna do with the opening of the shower, because our guy had an idea but did not really share how he was going to accomplish it.
I am looking forward to the week ahead and keeping my calories under control and shaking that evening cocktail. I want to drop 5 pounds by the end of the month, yup, I want to be 239. Keep praying for me, I need it.
Todays scripture quote:
For the Word of God is living and active, sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12
Ciao baby !!!
I have only worked out twice this week, but on the bright side that is 2 more times than I worked out last week. I have been watching my calorie intake, except for that evening cocktail that I am still trying to shake. I am seriously considering joining the new 24 hour fitness place that just opened. Why? Well, my current gym has hours that are not very compatible with my schedule. Their hours are 6am - 8pm Mon - Thurs, 6am - 6pm Fri, 7am - 2pm Sat, and 9am - 2pm Sun. My work hours are 11am - 7:30pm and saturdays 8am - 4:30pm, and I only get 30 mins for lunch. My current gym has alot of people over the age of 65, which is great, its nice to see older people keep fit. BUT it is a tad on the uncomfortable side because they have all day to be there, I go in around 9:30am, and they constantly want to chat and keep me from my workout...and of course I am too polite to interupt. *sigh* The advantages of the 24 hours place is being able to work out after I get off work, which is when I have the most energy. I would be able to go on weekends after I get off work and get home from church. If I was bored, I could run up and do 20 mins on the eliptical. I believe it would give me the freedom to be more pro-active in my exercise. The only 2 disadvantages that I can forsee at this time are it is $20 more per month and there is not always someone on duty to supervise. I plan on visiting this place on my day off this week to check it out.
How is my bathroom you ask? NOT DONE !!!! Why you ask? Apparently, our guy got bent because my husband did some of the work he was supposed to do. Why you ask did my husband do the work? Because our guy started to peter out and the project started taking too long. This wednesday will be one month since we ripped out our old bathroom. Soooo, hubby and I started doing some of the work ourselves and we are not very good at it. After our guy didnt show up last Friday, I took it upon myself to go to You Tube and watch a video on how to mud and tape drywall. I didn't do too bad if I do say so myself. When hubby got involved later that evening, it didn't go as well because he is all about fast and not about doing it correctly. Oh well, it was at least being done. We can always pay someone later down the line when we have more money in the budget to fix our mistakes, right? I didn't sand much after the mud dried and just painted over it. I know, I know, not the right thing to do, but I really need my bathroom to be functional again and cosmetics are not a priority at this time. So our guy called me Tuesday evening and told me he was upset because hubby messed up on the grout and mud and taping. I had to bite my tongue almost in half not to snap his head off because this guy didn't show up for 5 days and lied to his wife that he was coming to our house to work and she was calling around looking for him. HOW DARE HE BE MAD AT US for wanting our freaking bathroom finished. While I was talking to him, I was painting right over the pitiful mud and tape job we did and didn't sand. LOL. I know it drove him nuts, but hey, he didnt show to do it, right?
*stepping off soapbox*
Hubby laid most of the tile for the floor yesterday and guess who showed up? Yup, our guy. He cut the hole for the toilet, fixed the tile in the shower so the handles would fit flush, and fixed a bit of the plumbing. There is still alot of little issues that he was supposed to be responsible for, but apparently he has washed his hands of our project. Hubby will cut the door and finish the tile for the floor today and grout it after work on Sunday. Monday we will be able to install the toilet and the sink. Not sure what we are gonna do with the opening of the shower, because our guy had an idea but did not really share how he was going to accomplish it.
I am looking forward to the week ahead and keeping my calories under control and shaking that evening cocktail. I want to drop 5 pounds by the end of the month, yup, I want to be 239. Keep praying for me, I need it.
Todays scripture quote:
For the Word of God is living and active, sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12
Ciao baby !!!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Rain Rain Go Away
Wow...Rain really takes the umph outta me. That and arguing with my husband. When he doesn't get what he wants, he makes my life a living Hell. Yup, he asked me if he could spend $100 on a gas powered remote car. ??? Hellooooo, I don't have a real car of my own and my son's car that I have been driving has been broke down for 3 weeks and he NEEDS a new toy? Bite me !!! OK, I guess that kicked my umph back in, huh?
Eating wise I have been doing well. Stopping the evening cocktail has proved once again to be difficult.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Another day
Well, I did not have a good night. =( I woke up in the middle of the night and could not fall back asleep. So, what did I do? Have another drink !! Bad me. I did get some more sleep and slept in for the first time in ages, but the calories I consumed were way above my target.
Since I do not have a car, it is a great excuse not to visit the gym. Drinking Diet Dr Pepper doesnt help either. I have one 44 oz in the morning. Then in the evening I have a hard time falling asleep and I also wake up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep. When I wake up in the morning, I am tired and get another Diet Dr Pepper. Viciouos cycle. I need to get back on the band wagon.
My plan tonight is to take a handful (4 - 5) melatonin tabs to sleep. NO soda tomorrow. Walking on breaks and getting a better grip on myself. Gotta break that cycle.
Here are a couple of pictures of the bathroom so far.
Looking better. I will try to keep getting pictures everyday as after over 2 weeks without a bathroom, it should move along faster.
Since I do not have a car, it is a great excuse not to visit the gym. Drinking Diet Dr Pepper doesnt help either. I have one 44 oz in the morning. Then in the evening I have a hard time falling asleep and I also wake up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep. When I wake up in the morning, I am tired and get another Diet Dr Pepper. Viciouos cycle. I need to get back on the band wagon.
My plan tonight is to take a handful (4 - 5) melatonin tabs to sleep. NO soda tomorrow. Walking on breaks and getting a better grip on myself. Gotta break that cycle.
Here are a couple of pictures of the bathroom so far.
Looking better. I will try to keep getting pictures everyday as after over 2 weeks without a bathroom, it should move along faster.
Breakfast
trail mix - 3 pts
Snack
beef jerky - 3 pts
Lunch
Boca burger - 4 pts
Dinner
Chili - 6 pts
That is it so far. I am sure I will snack a bit this afternoon. I will record that later.
Ciao baby !!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
BLOG THIS
Once again I have been side tracked from my weight loss journey. The stress has finally subsided for the time being at work, but now the stress of remodeling has been going strong for about 4 weeks now
My biggest hurdle? Stopping my nightly cocktail again. This time around has been much harder than my decision last year to stop having a nightly cocktail. I don't know why, but I keep relying on it for sleep. I know I don't sleep as well when I do have the cocktail, but somehow I am still tricking myself into believing it will help me sleep. Now, dont get me wrong, I love my evening cocktail. It tastes wonderful and the relaxation is great too. But the side effects of my stomach being bloated all the time, the water retention, the restless sleep, the dehydration and all the extra calories I consume really do not compare to the benefits of stopping. I sleep better, I feel better, I have more energy, I lose weight faster and I am not groggy.
So, being the mature adult I am, why am I fighting what I know will kick start my weight loss again? I have no idea. I need someone to be accountable to, but I am not sure who would be the best person for the job. Most of my church friends have so much going on, that I would feel guilty asking them to monitor me too. I could ask one of the gals at the fitness center, but hey, I am already in the biggest loser contest and that hasnt worked. I guess its gonna have to be good old fashioned will power.
Now onto the remodeling of our bathroom. On Wednesday Feb 18th we demolished the bathroom. It was a few days later we found the worst possible sitiation. The plumbing was under the floor, with no way to get to it without tearing up the floor. Which we had to do to get the shower floor out. This increased the project cost by about $450.00. We are waaay over budget and out of money. Thank God John is willing to let us make installment payments to him for the labor he is doing. He is doing a great job and so far it looks fantastic....slow, but steady. Isn;t it lovely? Yes, that is plastic tile on the wall and the cabinet under the sink is made of none other than old paneling. Stop it !!! I know you are jealous, but it was a one of a kind and now its in the burn pile.
I will post some pictures of the progess so far, hopefully tomorrow. The shower is almost completed, the plumbing is done as is the wiring. Oh, and just so the whole world knows, I got my shower design inspiration from the Casey's bathroom in New Haven, MO. LOL.
My biggest hurdle? Stopping my nightly cocktail again. This time around has been much harder than my decision last year to stop having a nightly cocktail. I don't know why, but I keep relying on it for sleep. I know I don't sleep as well when I do have the cocktail, but somehow I am still tricking myself into believing it will help me sleep. Now, dont get me wrong, I love my evening cocktail. It tastes wonderful and the relaxation is great too. But the side effects of my stomach being bloated all the time, the water retention, the restless sleep, the dehydration and all the extra calories I consume really do not compare to the benefits of stopping. I sleep better, I feel better, I have more energy, I lose weight faster and I am not groggy.
So, being the mature adult I am, why am I fighting what I know will kick start my weight loss again? I have no idea. I need someone to be accountable to, but I am not sure who would be the best person for the job. Most of my church friends have so much going on, that I would feel guilty asking them to monitor me too. I could ask one of the gals at the fitness center, but hey, I am already in the biggest loser contest and that hasnt worked. I guess its gonna have to be good old fashioned will power.
Now onto the remodeling of our bathroom. On Wednesday Feb 18th we demolished the bathroom. It was a few days later we found the worst possible sitiation. The plumbing was under the floor, with no way to get to it without tearing up the floor. Which we had to do to get the shower floor out. This increased the project cost by about $450.00. We are waaay over budget and out of money. Thank God John is willing to let us make installment payments to him for the labor he is doing. He is doing a great job and so far it looks fantastic....slow, but steady. Isn;t it lovely? Yes, that is plastic tile on the wall and the cabinet under the sink is made of none other than old paneling. Stop it !!! I know you are jealous, but it was a one of a kind and now its in the burn pile.
I will post some pictures of the progess so far, hopefully tomorrow. The shower is almost completed, the plumbing is done as is the wiring. Oh, and just so the whole world knows, I got my shower design inspiration from the Casey's bathroom in New Haven, MO. LOL.
Breakfast
chicken - 6 pts
Snack
beef jerky - 2 pts
bugles - 2 pts
peanuts - 2 pts
Lunch
sandwich - 6 pts
Dinner
boca burger - 4 pts
Snack
popcorn - 4 pts
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Ok, lets hope this year is better than last year. I am probably not supposed to be surfing the web, but hey, she said 30 days...it was Dec 5th and today is Jan 6th, to me that is 32 days. We shall see. I prolly will stop once the wicked witch of the call center arrives, but until then, I am free to post way. Yee Haw !!!
I did get off track ALOT towards the end of the year, but have since gotten back on track. I need to start my food journal again. That really helps keep me accountable. Once my internet access at work is "allowed" again, posting my food will be a breeze. My hands have been tied for over a month now and it sure is frustrating.
Regarding exercise, I started that back up too. Yesterday I did almost a full circuit, but my right knee is really stiff, so I stayed away from some of the weights that use my knee. I did 20 mins on the eliptical and went again last night for another 10 mins. I would have gone longer, but I ran into Rich Lauer. Love that guy, but sometimes he chats to me before I get on the machine and holds me up. Buy hey, at least I went back. I am moving, which is a good thing. Today I got another late start, so only 20 mins on the eliptical this morning, but I can hit it on my way home this evening.
Well, the wicked witch is here, and there is no need to further tick her off. So I am outta here for now. Ciao Baby !!
Ok, lets hope this year is better than last year. I am probably not supposed to be surfing the web, but hey, she said 30 days...it was Dec 5th and today is Jan 6th, to me that is 32 days. We shall see. I prolly will stop once the wicked witch of the call center arrives, but until then, I am free to post way. Yee Haw !!!
I did get off track ALOT towards the end of the year, but have since gotten back on track. I need to start my food journal again. That really helps keep me accountable. Once my internet access at work is "allowed" again, posting my food will be a breeze. My hands have been tied for over a month now and it sure is frustrating.
Regarding exercise, I started that back up too. Yesterday I did almost a full circuit, but my right knee is really stiff, so I stayed away from some of the weights that use my knee. I did 20 mins on the eliptical and went again last night for another 10 mins. I would have gone longer, but I ran into Rich Lauer. Love that guy, but sometimes he chats to me before I get on the machine and holds me up. Buy hey, at least I went back. I am moving, which is a good thing. Today I got another late start, so only 20 mins on the eliptical this morning, but I can hit it on my way home this evening.
Well, the wicked witch is here, and there is no need to further tick her off. So I am outta here for now. Ciao Baby !!
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