Wow !! What a few weeks can bring. Once again Brianna decided that it would be a good decision to move out because then she can do what she wants to do and be her own person. PFFFFT !!! She is clueless.

Her skank boyfriend cheated on her and broke up with her. Then that same night comes to her and says he is sorry and that he really loves her. PFFFFT !!! She actually believes that she can love him enough to change him. Her job is to make sure she does everything she can to make their relationship work and he doesn't have to put forth any effort as long as he says he loves her. She is really the one who was keeping them apart because she didn't want to hear us tell her "no", (which of course we would not have said). She is willing to give up her whole family for him, but he doesn't have to give up anything to be with her.

What a crock !! I taught her better than that. She has seen from personal experience with her bio mom and myself that men who cheat, always cheat. It breaks my heart to see her degrade herself. Well, you can only raise them, you can't live their lives for them. IT SUCKS !! Unfortunately, only God can bring her to her senses. Oh, and he will, mark my words. He will cut her down, chew her up and spit her out. She will be bloody and beaten down. Only then can God pick her up and show her the right path and mold her into the woman of God I know she can be.

Good Friday

Well the weather isn't so good, but today is not about the weather. I am looking forward to tonights service. I definately need some fellowship. Very sad week, Carol Heck died last Sunday. She was such an inspiration. The pain she endured and the cheerful outlook she still had after all of her issues, makes my pitiful uncomfortables seem like dust in the wind. I know she is whole, happy and with the Lord now. Keeping him company and getting started on her eternal work. God bless you Carol and keep Darryl safe.

Good news is that I have been really good about getting to the gym. At least 5 times a week, and am tanning like crazy. My belly and butt look gooood..lol. My arms are not tanning as fast as the rest of my body...kinda freaky since that is pretty much the only body part that I have tanned in the last 20 yrs. I went to the doctor a few weeks ago, my weight officially was 242. So, still not down, but not going up at all.

I have not gotten control of my eating, but with the Lunesta, I am not drinking as much. There have been a few days, but for the most part I am just taking it at bedtime and going right to sleep. It is extremely expensive and with the fact that Scott stole a check and overspent again, I may not be able to afford it this month. Scott has received several calls from the lawyer, but State Farm is not wanting to cough up any extra cash. I advised Scott to start telling the lawyer the things that would let him know that we are willing to go to court because of all the mental trauma because the accident was so close to the date of his almost fatal accident 5 yrs ago and all the crap I have been getting at work since that accident. We really need that money soon, things are looking really bleak.

And here is to a better tomorrow. God Bless.